Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely.
- Auguste Rodin
So, here it goes. Use the experience wisely. I learned that making myself a doormat for so long just made those others believe they could walk all over me. I learned that letting all their bad behavior toward me go for sooooo long just made the hurt and resentment build up inside me until there was no where else for it to go but out of my mouth. (And not in a good way.) I learned that when you push someone to say what they have felt for over two decades, the truth, while not wholly unexpected, pierces the heart just as easily. Some words, once uttered, can never be taken back, can never be forgotten.
I have always tried to be a good person - listened to those others for hours on end, given sound advice when asked, kept my mouth sealed shut most of the time - but now I realize that I was marginalizing myself the entire time. Allowing myself to be that doormat.
Time was not wasted, however. I was just in my own personal life-training academy and my graduation was this past weekend...
Have a great week everyone!